In the tapestry of life, there are moments that weave us into the fabric of our own existence, leaving an indelible mark on our souls. Grief, with its raw intensity and profound depth, is one such thread that shapes our journey. As I sit here, on the cusp of another anniversary of my father's passing, I find myself engulfed in a whirlwind of emotions, reflecting on the path that has led me to this moment.
Grief is a labyrinthine journey, filled with twists and turns, highs and lows. It's been twelve years since my father departed from this world, yet the ache of his absence still reverberates within me. Memories of those final moments become vivid once again, transporting me back to a time when sorrow enveloped me like a shroud.
In the depths of my grief, I sought solace in control, grasping desperately at anything to numb the pain. But it was in surrendering to a higher power, to the universe's unfathomable wisdom, that I found true liberation. Letting go of the illusion of control, I embraced the present moment, finding peace in the midst of chaos.
As we enter the pre-shadow of Mercury retrograde and anticipate the first lunar eclipse, I am reminded of the inward journey that lies ahead. Retrogrades and eclipses, with their cosmic dance of energy, beckon us to turn our gaze inward, to explore the depths of our hearts and minds. It's a time of reflection, of re-evaluation, of realignment with our true selves.
Amidst my own personal experiences during this pre-shadow phase, I find solace in the present moment. It's here, in the stillness of my own being, that I discover the profound
beauty of existence. Each breath is a reminder of the preciousness of life, each heartbeat a testament to the resilience of the human spirit.
As I navigate the complexities of grief and surrender, I am reminded that healing is not a destination but a journey. It's a journey of self-discovery, of growth, of transformation. And though the road may be fraught with challenges and uncertainties, I walk it with courage, with grace, with an unwavering trust in the universe's infinite wisdom.
May we all find solace and peace in the present moment. For it is in embracing the journey that we truly discover the essence of our own being.
With love and light,
Maria Arena